I'm so discouraged

You read right, I broke down in tears after I got home from the gym tonight. I ran a mile and a half and that was it. I couldn't go any farther. I don't know why, I just couldn't. And I feel so defeated. I mean, I really feel awful about it.

I hate that I quit. That I couldn't even push myself another half mile. My legs hurt like crazy for some reason. Even after I did the mile and a half, I stretched and got back on only to do.25 miles before quitting again. I don't know whats gotten into me. Ugh..

Please tell me that I'm going to get some motivation back. Please. And how? I mean, how did I become so unmotivated? Is it because I'm going to the gym every other day now? And not every single day.I thought maybe a day of rest inbetween might help my legs and knees. Apparently not though. It just makes me yearn for another day off.

I guess you could say, I'm out of the "zone" I thought that running was becoming a permanent thing in my life. I mean, in just a short month, I went from not even being able to run a single mile to running a mile with no problem whatsoever. And then when I got up to 2 miles, I told myself I would never let myself drop below that. that my goal everytime had to be 2 miles or above.. what happend? How did I let it happen? I dont know..

Anyway, tomorrow I wont be going because Aaron has duty so I guess I'll do my biggest loser dvd.

Another thing is - my goal this month was to lose what 4-6lbs? Not happening.. not right now anyway. I can't seem to lose ANY weight. I even started that Special K diet thinking that eating that and exercizing would help me lose some. Granted, I JUST started the diet like two days ago.. sighhhh.. I dont know..

Anyways, sorry for the downer post. Any help with getting my motivation back would be greatly appreciated :) Thanks!