Dreaming

I had a dream last night that was so frustrating!
I dreamed that I was running a 5k back home. I was trying to get an awesome time.. but everything just seemed to get in my way.. something was always preventing me from actually making it over the finish line! I even woke up tired! LOL

Do you ever have those kinds of dreams? I wonder what they mean. ..

I had to go out tonight and run just to make sure I could! I just ran 2 miles but I did it easily.. which is nice to finally be able to say.. okay, well.. I can run about a mile and a half easily.. the last half mile, I'm about dead..

I ran the same a few nights ago. I've been taking Gunner to wear him out. I'll take him on the first mile and then drop him at the house and run the next mile. He's normally dead by the time I get him home but it makes him less hyper at night..

I was down to 134. Not sure if I posted that or not.. but got on the scale this morning and was 135.. darn.. but, I'm getting there.. the other day, I actually refused 5 Guys! And if anyone knows what 5 Guys is and how much I LOVE it, you know I'm being serious about eating right. .

do I always have to have a title?

Ive been walking the hills every night for abour 4 days and 2 days ago, I ran 2.1something miles. Which surprized me because I didn't think it was that far. I felt like I could have went forever though. I took Gunner with me on the first lap but he was slacking.

I'm down to 134lbs! Thats -3lbs in a little over a week. Ive been watching what I eat and trying to get out and exercise every night.

I think what started it all was camping. Aaron and I drank water the whole time. Nothing else and bearly ate because we were so busy. We're going camping again this weekend (27th) so maybe I can do the same thing. I would Love, love, lovee to get down to 130 before this weekend buuut I doubt that'll happen. Especially today since it's thundering and raining out right now. Bummer. I could always go to the gym though..

My 1st 5k!

Saturday, May 16th, I ran my first 5k. (I have no idea why this is being underlined right now. LOL) In the picture below, it's my Dad in the blue and Aaron in the green with the Camel Back on. My Dad said that he would run at my pace but then saw the guy ahead of him that always wins the race for his age group so he booked it. Dad's official time as 25:44 and he got 2nd place for his age group! AND he beat the guy that he was trying too! He kicked butt!!


Luckily for me, Aaron ran at my pace.The kid can run a 5k in under 22 minutes but stuck by my side, anyway. And I am so glad that he did! He literally was pusing me at one point. LOL! He was such a great motivaitor. He let me run ahead of him at the finish line so I would have a better time and he even told me how proud of me he was. I love that guy! On to the pictures. None were very good and I'm kinda disapointed by that because I wanted to get a frame of us finishing our 1st 5k together but we'll have to make do with what we have.. . .

Starting out.
Booking it to the finish line!
My arms a flailing!
FINISHED! 29:38!

t minus 5 days

Until the 5k! Man am I nervous! Especially considering I can only run 2 miles and a 5k is 3.2!

I've been running every day since I've been back in NY with the exception of yesterday (sunday = rest day) I plan on running tonight although I have no motivation to.

I still can't complete 3.2 miles on my runs. But I know, that when the day comes, I will be able to. I'm not much of a quitter. Especially when I know people will be watching. I'm just worried about my pace and breathing. And most importantly (to me) time. I doubt I'll be able to run it in under 30 minutes but I would be estatic if I could! Every mile that I run is at least 10 minutes though. If I could get myself down to 9 or even less, that would help, A LOT! But in 5 days, I doubt it'll happen.

In other news, I'm down to 137! Finally past 140 (for now!) Thank goodness! I was so sick of getting on the scale every single day and seeing 140 or above.. I just hope I can keep it this way.

I have been eating healthier since Ive been home. Lots of bananas. Which I love. And potassium rocks! So I know that eating right is obviously playing a great role in how much better I feel about myself..

Ive also notice d my love handles shrinking! YES! Now if I could just get rid of this awful stretch marks! LOL

I probably wont post again until after the race.

Ya know what..

I feel good about myself. Well, not good enough that Id want to prance around in a bikini..But good enough. I went from 180something pounds and now I'm at 137lbs in just under a year. Granted I will credit most of that to breastfeeding.. but I did and have been working out ALOT.

I mean, when I look at myself in the mirror, I don't see that fat face. (Aaron once called me a butterball. Lol) I don't see massive love handles AND when I look down, I can actually see my feet past my belly!

When I put my hands on my waist, I actually feel hip bone and not thickness of fat and I LOVE that feeling! I still have a wicked ass but it's slowly shrinking, too. Plus, Aaron likes my ass big. Ha.

Anyway, I guess you could say that I'm proud that I didn't just sit around and become an over weight slob like I wanted to. I want to bit fit and healthy for my kids and these days, there are som many Mom's who just kinda let them selves go. I mean, I gained 30-40lbs when I was pregnant with Noah and after I had him, I only got back down to 140 before I was pregnant with Benji. With Benji, I gained 40 MORE pounds.. and thought that I would NEVER see a size 5 again... well, I'm getting there and sooo happy about that!

So the 5k is May 16th. I got the route from my Mom and it actually looks pretty easy. Problem is (right now) that I can bearly run and mile and a half without wanting to quite.. thats from going so long without running because I was sick the first few weeks in April.

Today is my 2nd day of running. I have only been running a mile a dayt..I hope to go again tomorrow but my friend, Erica is coming down for the day. She said she'll be here by 10am so I hope I can get up and out the door before then.

I told Aaron today that I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to keep up with my Dad when we do the race. Or even worse, get beaten by my overweight realitive..I just need to push myself and sometimes, I just can't find the motivation.. its hard. .

Althought, I was 1 minute faster on my mile this morning. I'm at 9mins. I would love to be down to 8 or better yet, 7 before the race.. it's only 3 weeks away which means, I can only spare a few days off.. we'll see!!!

Finally

Finally. I am feeling better! Still blowing my nose every hour but that beats every second, right?

So, I ran this morning, and boy did it kick my butt. I told myself I would do 4 laps, (which is 2 miles) but I didn't. I did 3 and died. So I only did 1.41 miles. Or thats what the Google Pedometer says anyway.

So tomorrow is another day and hopefully I can run at least 4. My Dad starts running on Wednesday and I'm sure he'll kick my butt in the 5k.. but I have to try to beat him! Lol

I have managed to get down to 137lbs! So that's nice. We've been eating ALOT healthier, too!

Thats it for now.

Well, shoot.

It's been 9 days since I last ran?! Holy moly!

Well, I ran in the rain. And it was cold so I got sick. Still am sick. Hate being sick! But I'm starting to get over it. I can bearly breathe at night.

I havent been running. I know, I'm supposed to be training for a 5k and at this rate, my 50something year old father is going to whoop my butt..(well, he will anyway because he's in the best shape, ever! But I would have like dto have a chance to beat him)

So, I'll have to start Saturday(again) Aaron has duty tomorrow. All day and night so I wont be able to do much of anything. .

BUT, believe it or not, I am down 2 lbs! So 138 baby! I'm getting there.. .