Ya know what..

I feel good about myself. Well, not good enough that Id want to prance around in a bikini..But good enough. I went from 180something pounds and now I'm at 137lbs in just under a year. Granted I will credit most of that to breastfeeding.. but I did and have been working out ALOT.

I mean, when I look at myself in the mirror, I don't see that fat face. (Aaron once called me a butterball. Lol) I don't see massive love handles AND when I look down, I can actually see my feet past my belly!

When I put my hands on my waist, I actually feel hip bone and not thickness of fat and I LOVE that feeling! I still have a wicked ass but it's slowly shrinking, too. Plus, Aaron likes my ass big. Ha.

Anyway, I guess you could say that I'm proud that I didn't just sit around and become an over weight slob like I wanted to. I want to bit fit and healthy for my kids and these days, there are som many Mom's who just kinda let them selves go. I mean, I gained 30-40lbs when I was pregnant with Noah and after I had him, I only got back down to 140 before I was pregnant with Benji. With Benji, I gained 40 MORE pounds.. and thought that I would NEVER see a size 5 again... well, I'm getting there and sooo happy about that!

So the 5k is May 16th. I got the route from my Mom and it actually looks pretty easy. Problem is (right now) that I can bearly run and mile and a half without wanting to quite.. thats from going so long without running because I was sick the first few weeks in April.

Today is my 2nd day of running. I have only been running a mile a dayt..I hope to go again tomorrow but my friend, Erica is coming down for the day. She said she'll be here by 10am so I hope I can get up and out the door before then.

I told Aaron today that I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to keep up with my Dad when we do the race. Or even worse, get beaten by my overweight realitive..I just need to push myself and sometimes, I just can't find the motivation.. its hard. .

Althought, I was 1 minute faster on my mile this morning. I'm at 9mins. I would love to be down to 8 or better yet, 7 before the race.. it's only 3 weeks away which means, I can only spare a few days off.. we'll see!!!

Finally

Finally. I am feeling better! Still blowing my nose every hour but that beats every second, right?

So, I ran this morning, and boy did it kick my butt. I told myself I would do 4 laps, (which is 2 miles) but I didn't. I did 3 and died. So I only did 1.41 miles. Or thats what the Google Pedometer says anyway.

So tomorrow is another day and hopefully I can run at least 4. My Dad starts running on Wednesday and I'm sure he'll kick my butt in the 5k.. but I have to try to beat him! Lol

I have managed to get down to 137lbs! So that's nice. We've been eating ALOT healthier, too!

Thats it for now.

Well, shoot.

It's been 9 days since I last ran?! Holy moly!

Well, I ran in the rain. And it was cold so I got sick. Still am sick. Hate being sick! But I'm starting to get over it. I can bearly breathe at night.

I havent been running. I know, I'm supposed to be training for a 5k and at this rate, my 50something year old father is going to whoop my butt..(well, he will anyway because he's in the best shape, ever! But I would have like dto have a chance to beat him)

So, I'll have to start Saturday(again) Aaron has duty tomorrow. All day and night so I wont be able to do much of anything. .

BUT, believe it or not, I am down 2 lbs! So 138 baby! I'm getting there.. .

I hate rain

I bearly made it 1.88 miles. I was pushing for 2 but was just shy. Didnt find out later until I googled it.. oh well..

Did a different route today. SO boring! It's 7 laps around the townhome complex.. and it sucks.. I mananged to do 4 before I quit. Id rather do the hills.

Tomorrow's another day..